Never thought i'd be here

No matter how hard I try to get myself to find a consistent routine to be on here, I just seem to keep failing.

Interestingly enough, life has placed me at a crossroads...and it feels almost as if I had no choice in the matter. Like, having an out of body experience-where all you can do is watch yourself do something and not have any ability to stop it or change it because that is JUST what the universe has demanded.

You can see it, but you can't stop it.

I've started to wonder if life is just a series of events, and we are just here playing our roles..and what IS real is the feelings that come with it.

We may not have a choice in what's happening, but the experience is the highs and lows...the happiness, the heartbreak, the laughter, the tears...

I'm sure you're thinking that i'm crazy...we all have a choice in the way our lives are going to go, we all have the autonomy.

But, what about those days where gravity makes you stay in bed just a little longer?

The days where you take an extra lap around the block with your dog?

What if...this is life directing you to take in those moments?

Telling you to linger, trying to whisper that this is temporary.

Of course, every moment is fleeting...and sure...you can walk that block tomorrow and even though it feels the same, it won't be the same.

So, what do we do?

We kiss each other like it's the last time, every time.

We don't question when our body calls us to hug someone, we just squeeze them.

We look at them like they can read our minds, and then when they can't-we tell them.

We never know when the last day with someone is the last-whether in life or death.

So, we make it count.

We let go of our anger.

We let go of our hurt.

We let go of the rest of the world...

and while everything feels lost, we reach out and find each other for a moment in time...before it passes.

That is love, in all of its nakedness.