Day 1: Beginnings

Hi you.

Maybe writing to you will give me the courage to be more comfortable with being me again-or maybe who I’ve become.

It’s true that we all have things we’re unhappy with, and maybe coming to terms with that will help in the process of making them better..

You may not know it yet-or maybe by now you do, but you’ll come to understand that this last year was one of massive heartbreak for me.

I definitely thought she was my person, and I know what you’re thinking-YOU’RE my person. You’re absolutely right, and hopefully for all of the right reasons this time around.

Driving to the airport for work seems to bring me to tears, or finding myself looking around for her (and her dog) waiting for me when I get back from work is sometimes the biggest punch to the gut..moving to Orlando was supposed to be a good thing but It is full of memories everywhere.

Everyone says to move forward, but I think I’m still stuck kind of salvaging the good parts. I hope that’s something that you will come to appreciate from me, not that I want to be thinking about my ex-but that I really care about and notice the little things.

I believe that after a long day, coming home to someone-literally or figuratively speaking can just make the entire day (and sometimes the world) melt away.

The initial moments of silence when wrapping ourselves in each others arms for a long hug, or just catching their eyes when they pick up the video call is everything-and almost nothing at all.

I think what I’m starting to see is that I want to focus on the good-because those things stuck out to me..and I want that with you in the future.

I want to learn from the bad, but with those things..I just want to move forward instead of linger.

Honestly, it’s not the anger but the sadness that I don’t want to find myself in.

I hope one day I can see myself the way you do, and I hope I already do when we find one another.

Sweet dreams my love.