Day 20: Migraines

I wish I was stronger.

I’m tired.

Tell me, how much can the heart and mind take before both just want to stop?

I won’t talk to anyone, maybe bits and pieces here and there.

It’s a broken record, I’m a broken record.

I am broken.

Tell me, how do I learn to let go..how do I learn to not love so much?

It’s too much, and the tide is too strong..and I can’t fight it anymore.

So, I just keep getting pulled out, pulled in, pulled under, with no relief in sight.

I am gasping for air so much that the need to breathe is the only thing I can think of.

I feel betrayed by myself.

I just want to get away, be someone else, anyone else.

I didn’t want to write tonight, I just wanted to keep sleeping.

I think I will.