Day 43: Lost
- Dec 23, 2021
- 1 min read
I wish I knew the right things to write.
Where Is this connection everyone talks about?
why does it feel like my wick is running out, and my light is starting to waver?
On nights like this, I don’t know if I believe in this journey towards you.
my heart hurts, and I don’t want to do it anymore.
i’m tired. My heart is tired.
i just don’t want to keep doing it.
I don’t know if it’s worth it right now.
i am tired of hurting, I am tired of being disappointed, and I am tired of trying. when does it let up?
I’m starting to understand why it’s called being a hopeless romantic. at what point does a person decide enough Is enough, and decides they don’t want to keep searching for love anymore?
I don’t know if you’re out there anymore, or if you’re just a fairytale.
I’m tired of fighting.
Your heart and mind can’t seem to decide, but feels exhaustion. You seem to state strong boundaries while also balancing it out with your “resume” of qualities that you bring to the relationship and maybe both your heart and mind might need to be trained that it’s OK to take that break. You will and are still capable of showing up everyday with the option to give love when the opportunity presents itself. I hope your heart and mind find that balance of peace and availability!