Day 8: Week 1

Here we are, one week down and 51 more to go.

I think I will do my best to look back at each week and try to reflect at the end..but, truthfully I may also find myself wanting to share something that feels more important.

I’m sure you’ll laugh when you read this, because we are both aware that I am a chatterbox-and EVERYTHING, down to the smallest detail is important. Hopefully, you’ll appreciate that attention to detail-even though it does make for a length story when an event may have only lasted 15 minutes.

(Lucky for you, that attention to detail doesn’t just apply to stories.)

But, for this first week I will set the tone for reflection.

This week was definitely difficult, I found myself not wanting to journal at times-but set an alarm each day to remind myself if I hadn’t already done it.

I took a look at what was important to me, and I did my very best to start to line up goals I had in mind.

I realized just how important my relationships were to me, and I kept repeating it over and over to myself that I want to make better connections-if anything, make the connections I already have better.

I hope that when we find one another, I still have these people in my life-because I truly don’t believe they are seasonal. I hope you come to love them as I do, and they love you in return.

As you are reading this, I think this might already be true.

I hope for a support system, and to grow that support system-as well as be the support system my friends have been for me the last few months-if not, the last year and a half.

I truly hope to be a better human, a better partner, a better friend, and ultimately a better dog mom to Ru (to be expected, of course).

I have started veering myself away from unhealthy relationships, and people who ultimately don’t respect my boundaries the first or third time I’ve communicated them.

I have also started to try to analyze what has brought me to where I am and the people I seem to find myself not only dating but also surrounding myself with.

This.is.exhausting.

All in all, I have realized that beside the general goals I have set for myself-these are ALSO goals, and should be treated as such.

You are a goal I keep in mind, not that I want my future partner to be my one and only driving factor..but, it is a light at the end of the tunnel, a hope that helps keep the fire burning-and leaves me optimistic at the end of the day.

I hope we are each other’s biggest cheerleaders.

All in all, with one week down-I feel really good about the overall momentum.

Here we are. Happy New Year, my love. Let’s make this a great one.